good advice

via letuspin

I've been absent from blogging for way too long and I'm sorry that my first post in a while is all "woe is me" but it's been one of those weeks. The really frustrating part is that it's just one thing that has made this week kind of miserable. I know I could choose to let it affect me differently but sometimes one thing can just ruin everything. It really sucks that instead of empowering others that people (or, in my case, a certain person) can selfishly take power from you- feeling helpless and weak is not a good feeling at all and that's how I'm kind of feeling right now. I know it will get better which is why I had to just put it out there. Sometimes saying (or writing) things out loud makes you feel so much better. It's true. As I'm finishing this post I feel a huge sense of relief- I'm doing what I have to do until I can do what I want to do. This situation isn't permanent, it's just for right now. As long as I keep taking action and creating my happy things will get better.

Ebert is out of town, so tonight I'll be enjoying some solitude, drinking a gin cocktail, ordering Thai food and creating some happy!

the harmonica

I have decided, for whatever reason, that I want to learn to play the harmonica. I'm not really sure why, maybe I want my life to be more musical like Harold Crick or maybe I just want a distraction from writing and creating other things. Regardless of the reasons, I ended up buying this harmonica. It's a cheap beginner harmonica but I can already, kindof, play one song. It's very exciting!

It's been awhile since I've learned something new. I mean, sure we learn lessons every day and are always learning from our mistakes and expanding on what we already know, but to have no knowledge of something and now to know a little bit about it is…well, it's thrilling. I'm liking being a beginner. As soon as I have some free time I'm going to take lessons too.

Today felt dismal and I was unenthusiastic about the ordinariness of it, but once I came home and practiced my harmonica I was reminded how easy it can be to turn everything around. Crossing one more thing off the list and creating my happy!